Tired. Just done with cleaning up my fish tank. But unfortunately its not clean at all. Oh my gawd. Wasted effort. Oh well, soon I'm gonna go again. Soon.

Tomorrow's Sweetheart's birthday! Happy birthday my gorgeous! May all your wishes come true okays? Remember that I always love you and willing to be here for you. I'm sacrificing everything that I have just for you okays, sweetie? Hmm, today's the last day I'm being in the same age as you. Have to start being you god-grandson by tomorrow. Ahakz!

Hmm, so a new promise has been made. At my own will I promise her that I'm only to take care of her and her feelings. I'd just forget about my feelings. I'm not mad. I'm not crazy nor am I angry. I just cared so much. The more I say about my feelings, the more she would be lost and the more she's gonna feel like killing herself due to guiltiness. So why should I right? Hmm, don't worry about me. I'll be fine as long as you are. I'll be happy as long as you are. I'm not gonna take back my words simply because, this IS a promise. Ahaha! Correct, right? Hmm, I was hurt deeply about something but I think I'd better hush. I love her more than my feelings. I can't bear to look at her being deliberately demoralised like .. oh never mind! My point here is that she suffers too much by just thinking about how hurt I am. So it's time to make it up. She probably had enough and can't take it anymore. Kesian kan tengok dia macam ni? She had to think about home, sister, brother, 3rd party issue and me. I'd better not be one of those factors anymore. Yeah, I'm trying to make her life easier. Hope she's happy.

Labels : I've muted my heart so no one could hear it.

Hehe! I'm back to my blog times! Nak tunggu sayang nyer diary, sampai bila-bila pon tak akan dapat lah. So forget it, I'll just continue writing them here. Hmm, Life's been so uncool lately. Heck if I know why. I'm still waiting for a call from Vera (Moviebites Manager). Hopefully i get the job yeahs?

So anyways I'm in a holiday right now. Fasting at the same time. The boring part is that I'm not gonna get any slips of money at all. So how should I go out and Buka outside? Friends, I'm sorry about this okays? Please understand. I'd have to stay at home cause most parts of the house require immediate attention, mainly the fish tank! Tak terjaga-jaga seh! Algae grew everywhere and it gets disgusting! Kesian ikan-ikan pat dalam. One by one, the perished. Grotesque, grotesque, grotesque.

So this blog. Same old blogskin, music's gone. Don't know what happened to it. Oh well.

Been so pissed off lately. Nowadays I'm so mad about something. I'm too old for a start of puberty, right?

Labels : Please be there, will you? Please?